This week, I have been shaken. Shaken as close to my very core as I ever have been and in the process, I have been blessed with the knowledge of so many powerful truths-even though they coincide with a lot of, well; just a lot.
Tuesday I got a call from one of my dearest and closest friends. She had just been diagnosed with colon cancer. Wednesday morning, she went in for surgery. She is 36 years old and a mother of 4. Point blank; it's scary. She's known that something wasn't right with her body for a while and even though she hasn't said as much, I don't think the diagnosis was a huge surprise to her. But still, cancer, at 36? Part of me wants to ask why, but I know that won't get me anywhere, so instead I am asking what. What can I do for her? Her kids? Her husband? And perhaps most importantly, what can I learn from this?
This week I have found myself in a bit of a haze. My thoughts have been focused mainly on her and her well being and I know that the prayer in my heart has never ceased or been uttered with such sincerity, intensity and urgency. I have struggled to be able to really focus on anything and much of the time I not really sure what it is that I am feeling. There is sadness, there are tears (lots and lost of tears), but there is also peace. Peace because I know that no matter what she has to face and not matter what this trial brings to herself and her family that she had two things that will get her through: knowledge and strength. She knows that she is a daughter of our Heavenly Father and that He loves her. We, as her friends, know that too, and it is one of the most powerful truths that I have found comfort in all week. The second thing is strength: I'd like to quote a friend in saying "Though she is small, she is fierce!" And in that fierceness, she is teaching me every day!
I love you Camie-more than words can ever ever say and more than I even thought or realized I did. You are a rock in my life that I don't know what I'd do without and I know that my life has been and will continue to be blessed because you are a part of it.
Now--let's kick cancer's butt!
